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Geographical Characteristics?

What causes someone to make another person believe they are someone they aren't? This has been a reoccurring theme in my life since I have moved to Chicago. You can't tell me that everyone has this undying passion for acting, so that they absolutely can't resist performing all the time. A friend of mine said to me-in a place with so many aspirations, people want to believe they have aspired to become something that they actually haven't.

My boss at my last job managed to convince me for 8 months that she wasn't married. I am not that gullible. And who LIES about being married? Especially a woman? I mean I have known men who don't wear wedding rings so that they can hit on females. But I spent a lot of time both in and outside of work with this woman. She is a small business owner, so there is not much separation between work and personal life for her. And she told me on several occasions that she was not married. And then one day I met her husband. This is when I knew I did not want to work for this person anymore. If she lies about being married, what else is she lying about?

This is not the only occasion in the last year where I've come into close contact with someone, and gotten to a point where I felt I knew them well, only to find out they were not at all who I thought they were. Is this because I am from a small town? Is it because I am so used to knowing who people are, and they usually reamain to be the same for years and years? I wouldn't like to think so.

So when you meet a person, don't you want to just meet them, be in their presence, and enjoy their company without having to second guess them? This is something I may have taken for granted before, but not anyomre. Being able to meet someone and not have to constatnly question who they are is something I take great pride in doing. I have a great appreciation for embracing people's personalities, characters, and lives. How can I continue to enjoy embracing these things when people keep lying about them?

Is it a question of geography, or coincidence? Do more people in Chicago lie, or have I coincidentally had these experiences since moving here? If it is about geography, I am not interested in living here. I want to stay grounded, and genuine. That is who I like to be. How can I stay rooted, and grounded, when so many people I meet are so superficially fake? Enough with the liars. There is no place in my life for liars.

It's already happening. . .
i can't believe it. trees are changing, and there is a day this week that will not be over 55 degrees. Fall is here.

Updates

My big news is that I got a new job! I am very excited. I will be working on the art department at a screen printing/embroidery shop. I will be dealing with clients on a regular basis which will be good. I will have about a 25 minute bus ride there, and walk just 3 short blocks. The place seems pretty laid back too which is good-no cubicles or three piece suits so I should fit in just fine. This comes at a very pivotal time because I was begining to think I was not meant to be here in Chicago. But it looks like I will be here for a while still. I like Chicago for now. I won't stay here forever, but it is very inspiring to live here where there is so much diversity and opportunity. I always picture myself settling down in the country though, in a more peacefull place-when I am more at peace with myself.

I will be making a much needed trip home next weekend. I haven't been there since Easter. I miss mi familia! I will try to squeeze as many visits in as I possibly can in one weekend. There will gefinitely be a stop at Grandma & Grandpa's. A place I hold so dear to my heart. When I think of my "happy place" it is there. I picture myself as a bare-foot 5 year-old running around their farm on a sunny day, hair blowing in the wind. Maybe climb an apple tree, chase the cats, sneak into the barn, or roll down the hill. Ahhh those memories are so sweet. And I mean NO ONE can top my Grandmothers cooking from scratch! She is THE BEST! And my sister Erin is pregnant and we are sooo excited!

Today while I was on MySpace, I found a very talented illustrator. This calibur of work is what I am aspiring to achieve one day. Have a looksee. . .